Thts the question i'm trying to find an answer to. Is the modern day life real? I do not know but I think it isn't. In the year 2001 when I passed out of school in class 12, I still remember I used to give birthday treats for 40 bucks and treasure the 4 rupees canteen snack that I could manage, the 2 rupees contribution to buy a cricket ball of 25 rupees.........Come 2008!!! What a change it has been. i do not mind spending 150 bucks on a cold coffee with chocolate sauce and ice-cream....that for me is the price I pay for trying to be "in tune with the modern ways of society".......but is that who I truly am.....because my history and past pattern of behavious does not suggest that it is the real me.....then the question which comes up is - "Who am i trying to become?"....and the only answer i can come up with is " I'm trying to be a year 2008 man".......to be identified with a type of behaviour that is considered 'cool' in the modern day society......but for what and at what cost????....
I am losing out on my original self....the self which helped me through the most wonderful and impressionable period of my life......the self that a child learns from its surroundings and from its habitat....the real self that makes the character of a person. Why am I falling into this trap?????.........
Everyone is competing with one another....trying to prove that one is better than the other......trying to fight against this world......trying to live a life for this world....to create opinions about ourselves the way we want the world to percieve us..........why???????????........why do we attach so much importance to this world???....for me it is a different case....for me this world does not exist and if it does its a small world made up of people who I care for and people who care for me........(To be continued.......)
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